Right now is the perfect time that I wish I had someone that I can cry on their shoulder. It really sucks being single sometimes, but it's really great others.
I never imagined that we would be dealing with all this, this summer, much less in my lifetime.
I never thought I would live to see the day that Meme would be the way she is. She always seemed so strong. I guess I got caught up in the idea that my life was going so great, I never thought of a bombshell like this.
But she is making it through. Today was her first day of rehab at Brooks, and mom and me were right by her side. They had this machine to lift her and she actually stood up!! it was so amazing. and then they have a rehab dog named Cane. He is a golden retriever and the cutest darn thing EVER. I wanted to scoop him up and take him home with me.
So today was a good/bad day. Like I said, it's hard for me to watch them work with Meme when just last week she was so independent. and now it's hard for to feed herself. She started moving her leg today, and so mom and me decided that our goal is to have her walking by my going away party.
On top of all this, I'm so overwhelmed. I feel like my whole life I've had to be the adult in one way or another. I'm sick of it. I'm not supposed to be the adult, i'm supposed to be the college kid.. ugh.
This week has been rough. and next week won't be any easier. Tomorrow I'm going to the beach with Kara and then hanging with Emily for her birthday. So I'll have a little break. and I miss church so badly, so I can't wait until Sunday. Oh, and I got my transcripts back from FSU. I already have 16 credit hours! I know it's not much, but it really is soothing to think of going into my freshman year with 16. I have such a long road ahead of me with med school and everything so any little bit is like a celebration! lol
Off to watch a movie with mom, tootles! hehe..
<3Caila Lanell
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Well Caila for you to be strong with her and stand by her side through her time of need is just so amazing. I know what you mean about everything being perfect but me things went down hill,but i am standing up strong as you should be and i know you can,you proved that on more than one occasion. it amaze3s me how you have so much love,so much kindness,a great character,you just amaze me everyday and it shows me how wonderful you really are .stay strong Caila =]
thanks edwin =)
Youre welcome =] just remember like you always tell me God is with you every step of the way, and everything will come in place =]
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