So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form.

It's so hard to find a balance. To actually stand on two feet.

From school work, to looking to the future, to standing up for what I believe in, to living happily, it really gets to be a lot. There are so many pressures and responsiblities.

I'm trying to focus on the "now" when I keep hearing about the future. I'm looking forward to it, there are so many things uncovered and I can't wait to experience new things (and new people). But, I barely have time to worry about it.

I find it hard to balance social, school, and personal.

I'm really overwhelmed lately.

And then there's dealing with the past. I look back and think "why the heck did I let people take advantage of me like that?!" I was so stupid. I have so many regrets, but then again, I wouldn't know where I stand if I didn't experience it. I have so much anger that I wish I didn't have. God has a funny way of showing you a light in the dark. I've also realized that sometimes when you think are out of the tunnel you really aren't. That you really have no clue what kind of darkness could be up ahead.

but anyways!

Guard is picking up! The 2nd number is slowly coming together and that's good. Now we can lok toward rifles :D

but i have a sore throat, and I'm out of cough drops :( so that stinks.

But I'm off to bed. or writing an essay; i'm not sure.

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"And we break and we burn

And we turn it inside out

To take it back to the start

And through the rise and falling apart

We discover who we are."